Satisfaction > Longing

You decided to give your alma mater a visit, the same place where that person is studying and you're not. Honestly, you have no reason to visit anyway. Maybe to see the events? Or maybe not. Usually you visit all by yourself giving the impression that you are there to impress. But now, you are with a friend. That makes a difference. You tried to greet that person from the past but that person won't even look at you. Bitterness? Yes? No? I don't know. Leaving the place, I could see from the corner of my eye that this person is looking at me. But there's no looking back anymore. Things shall pass for me. I felt more satisfaction that longing. Maybe everything's better off like this. 

There will always be this longing and questioning like what would have happened if I cared more, exerted more? Or maybe, what if  I decided to hold on? But sometimes, we question more intensely, what if I didn't give a damn? Things might have been better or worse. Life, anyway, is a matter of choice. And I chose to not look back. I've had so much of my time regretting and reminiscing. But this won't mean looking for a new one, but rather, growing up on my own.