It is coming to an end

It's December already, 2010 it is. This year has been a turning point. There are endless stories, dramas and much more untold. And what's more surprising is that these have made me really different from what I was before. I have grown up somehow.

First, there was college. It is generally a turning point for anyone anyway. It won't surprise you anymore. College isn't just part of education. It is something much more. This was the place/ time/ stage (you might be talking about the school, the part of life or etc.) when my narrow mind finally opened up to a lot of possibilities. This is point when I learned what I really want, I wanted to make a difference. Everyone says this though but I want to make it real and not just dream. I want to build an empire of my own and I will make it, not just say it. I learned to plan for myself, what I want and determine how I can. Then this was when I learned what I really am. I am a naturally restless person. There is the constant need for me to do something and make good on it. And I don't know why. There is always a struggle against myself to do better. Is that bad when my willpower always takes over my body's limitations? My mother says I should stop. My sickness might take a toll on me. But I want to do more. I want the stress and the tension. I need to hate those sleepless nights.

Then came the untold stories of heartbreak and attraction. College brought more heartbreak than tensions. Separation and depression.

Easy come, Easy go
That's just how you live oh
Take, take, take it all
But you never give

Gave you all I had 
And you tossed it in the trash, 
Tossed it in the trash you did

To give me all your love
Is all I ever asked
But you don't understand (Grenade by Bruno Mars)

It was a choice, I never liked.