Of Numbers and Terrors
I wanted to be someone. Someone who would stand out among others in something. But what makes me wonder is what is this something? It took me awhile to discover my something. I pondered on that thought and for a second, I thought that I want to be the jack of all trades but I don’t want to be a master of none. Besides, the world is too small and time is too short. It seems too high for me to reach like a star miles away from me. Space and time separates us. Too far and plainly quixotic.
Once, when I was just this small. I dreamt of becoming a lawyer. Politicians fascinated me back then. With their eloquence and fluency of speech, I feel captivated. I wanted to learn their craft. But I later discovered the other side of politics, the dirty politics. That was something I wouldn’t like to do, a really bad thing to do. Then, I thought I would be better if I were an architect. I would build dream homes with great labors. The skyscrapers of the big city make me full of awe. These were built by great minds but I asked myself, “Do I have a mind like theirs?” As time passed, I discovered a wider world for me to explore. There were more possibilities, more than what I could ever imagine. My love for art and computer graphics made me think that I could fit in. But I later learned of the tough competition in such field. Besides, in this world full of artists, my creative juices won’t be enough. My artistry will lead me nowhere. I then expressed myself through my writings and there, I discovered my love of grammar and flair of words. I saw myself writing for big players of the media industry. But again, I feel disheartened. My passion will remain a passion for I later realized that it’s not for me. Passion isn’t just enough. Too much of a pessimist? Not really. I just wanted to look at things realistically. You can’t be too much of an idealist these days. Since then, I searched for that something. I never expected that it would be it; I never thought that business would be my business a year from now. Almost unfathomable but yes, business and commerce. Numbers and terrors. A five year course, five years of computations and management. How I will survive my five years? I will study. I will do good. If I need to burn the midnight oil, I will. Nothing’s impossible anyway. Skills can be learned like numbers can be practiced. I just need determination, skill and a little luck. That would be enough for me to get through. And of course, a good school. Everyone needs a good foundation. I would enroll myself in a good school. And books before anything else. After five years, probably, I have already a job of my own. Then, I will rise up, straight to the top. I have the guts and I will have the glory. I will go the distance and I’m not gonna stop. My will shall make me survive.
Thinking of what you will be in the next ten years is easy but doing it and pursuing it is another story. Studying in a business school is big but climbing the corporate ladder is bigger. Business Administration is something and Human Resource is another because choosing the course you will take up is hard but deciding what career you will end up is harder. It is every fourth-year high school student’s dilemma. Yes, every incoming graduate. However, it comes to the point when you need to choose and you know what, I have already chosen mine. And I will give it a shot.
What do you think? :)
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